Just another poem........

Just thought I should mention that not all the poems I write are what I feel or think, usually they are just a muddle of words in my head which I jot down.

The You Within
A smile like yours should never exist
Eyes like yours should always be missed
Never would I have looked in your eyes
If I had know what was in your mind
On your lips there is poison
In your kiss my demise
But all this hid well
In your innocent disguise
Your arms, once my haven
Have turned to my hell
What I asked you to see
Now I wish to dispell
In my memory forever
Though I wish to drown you out
For the past to be a haze
You're a saint without
But with a mind so confused
You're riddled with sin
What may look like an angel
Is a demon within

Better late then never....

I'm a day late, but....... Happy Birthday Tini!!! You're fun, cute, easy to get along with, and the list goes on.......

I wish I could've gotten to know you better. Hope to see you again sometime in this lifetime:D.

My 7th heaven

For christmas Mel gave me a super snazy lolipop...nice, big and colorful...but the other day she gave me a even bigger one!!!!!!! Just out of the kindness of her heart...now isnt that swell?!! She will now be my forever friend, lol.
Just to let you know...if you ever want me to love you forever and ever more...all you need to do is buy me one of these...hehe.
The smaller one was my cmas gift, the BIG wowie one was out of the kindness of Jelly beans heart.On cloud nine..... (the 3rd one above my eye isnt mine tho)Lolipop lolipop ohh loli loli loli.....

pumpkin.......

My poor little model has to suffer my photoshoots sumtimes, but not tooo often since my photography skills are lame. But anyhow, bad fotography or not, she comes out good.heh

Get Funky

this is how I want to dance with you :D

me...ewww

seen as people have been asking for pictures of me I will post. Only because I love them.

Shes growing uuuup.....

Today Amelia has eaten cereal...wowawiwu. I'm having mixed feelings about her getting older. (sniff---giggle---burst into fits of uncontrollable tears)...ok, now that moment of emotional breakdown is over......

No really, it's an odd feeling, and in a way I wish she could stay small and innocent forever, but it's not to be, and I'll love her the same always.

Just because I'm missing her small tuchi wuchi stages I'll put some old pics up.

hurrah...family outting

We went to the park yesterday... was nice weather, relaxing. Here are a few pix.
My sister Trin and Amelia
Munching on their sandwhiches, sooo cute my munchkins!

Antwone...el futbolista
SHOCK
Me and Amelia in our new outfits (thanks Trin)

Vicky's birthday....

Well...yesterday Vicky turned a year older...now this was not a bad thing, but a good thing, especially since it meant good food (God bless Adam and Trin)...and the fact we actually all sat at the table together was nice...I think. hehe.
Was also a big day for Amelia...she had her first communion!!....well alright, not really, it was more like her first taste of cake and wine. heh. All in all twas a nice chilled evening.
The great dane herself...
Amelia's first cake experience.....
...and first wine experience

Another of my poems....I'm sooo EMO(tional)...LOL

For Filz

Alone in my thoughts

Disguising my fears

By myself I fought

But I cried many tears

I thought I was strong

With my pride tried to fly

But I ended up falling

20ft from the sky

Then finally He who loves all so dear

Said there, that’s enough

And sent me a friend

Who (besides being busy)

Took time and prayed

(Sometimes sang me a ditty)

To make me not feel so grey

So all in all, this is a poem

To give him my thanks

And say, “Hope you have a ball”

Your son is so cute

Your lady is such fun,

But still....

May God bless you with more

Cause you’re such a great chum

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO....

Pretty
Eccentric

Amazing

Ravishing

Lovely (Loca, heh) PEARL

Miss you! Hope you have a super good year. Stray as crazy as ever.

BTW...that was the only pic I had of u on my computer...heh.

Trials of life

Jordan, Antwone and Joshua have been sick for the past few days (I blame it all on the weather here in Madrid, sigh). I feel soo bad for them, runny noses and all. And now Amelia is getting the cold too. I think my smushy is quite bewildered with this whole new world of coughing.

Poor things, I feel for them all!!

But despite being sickly Amelia is surprisingly cheery (gets it from me...lol)

Here's a pic I took of her today...

Meal time is a happy tiiime

Today Amelia had bananna for the first time. HURRAH!! It's the second solid she had. On the 1st I gave her apple for the first time. But yeah, her face when she tasted the bananna at first was hilarious! Pity I didn't have the camera on hand for it. But here are some pictures that we did manage to take.
What the heck are they giving me?!
Lets just tryyy it....

Heyy, its kinda goood!!

For Amelia

My Own Angel

Once an angel

Now you're mine

God sent you to me

You're heavens design

With just a smile

You entered my heart

Now from there you'll never depart

A work of the Lord

You definetly are

For you I'd gladly bear any scar

But just one thing I ask

I have only one plea

That a star for God you always will be

Just a few pathetic rhymes for my times.....

Spiralling into infinity,
Where in the beginning all was the same
But as you fall you soon realize that,
When you fell all things changed
The darkness seems all around you,
Yet the light shines on our pain
We feel the spiral twirl around us
As it takes our lives to drain
(Mel:)
Feel the twisted convulsions
In our heart a blatant plea
(me:)
The question we all ask and we ponder
Will float around for eternity.


THE ROPE BURNS...
An open sea there is beefore me,
A life of sorrow is a the shore
So to the sea I plead "please drown me!"
I wish to be knocking on the paradise door.
The sky so dark and solemn above
The water below an enticing blue
To one i ask a star to grant me
To the other I ask a wave or two

Now I stand on the edge, but I´m holding on tightly,
The rope burns my hands , and my knuckles are blue,
I squeeze my eyes tight
I loosen my grasp
The chilly sweet kiss of my death at last.

For my man....

I'm spinning out of control
Now only you can save me
I'm falling into a black hole
Please, I need you to catch me

I wanted to feel I was strong
On my own I wanted to make it
But now I know that I was so wrong

Take me back into your arms
I want to feel safe again
Dont want to make the same mistake again

Only your love is pure
All else is in shades
All other love fades
Now I know your love is my cure
Cause everything else is unsure...........................


This is the best I could do, pity I couldn't think of better words to describe the way I feel about Jesus.He rocks and no poet could find words that are good enough to describe Him!!!

Grin through the pain

In life there are good days and bad days, happy and sad, sunny and rainy. Something I've learned is you have to smile through whatever and everything, it makes you feel alot better, but if you don't start as soon as u feel down, you'll end up feeling like crap the whole day, sometimes even the whole week through! So put your best foot forward and.....

Smile though your heart is aching......

I started my school for the year....siiigh!!...but I'm gonna smile.

Amelia hasn't slept well for 3 nights....but hey, at least shes slept well so far!!!

I'm lonely sumtimes, but that shows I'm single and don't have to be tied down to a relationship (phew)!!!

Maybe you should try to think of all the bad things in ur day and see how you can be thankful for them...works for me:D.

the one who makes my life worthwhile!

Here we go here we go hey ho

Well well well, I have begun a blog. I think I was feeling a bit left out and uncool, maybe because I am...hmmm, (I dwell on the thought for a moment). Anyhow, yes...I will begin by telling all a little about me, not everything because then there is nothing left for you to discover (how mysterious, NOT) .

Well if you are looking at my blog you probably already know me, which means you probably already know this but what the heck......
Name: Michelle
Age: 16, like the song in sound of music..."I am sixteen going onto seventeen"
Location: Spain, but hopefully will be leaving here sometime in this centuary.
Status: Single Mother.

A little about me: Okay, as you have probably guessed, I am an extreame time waster, I mean, who goes and writes all this stuff about themselves, really?!! I should be getting extra word time or bonding with the humans in my home but instead here I am making a blog, how LAME!!! Lol.
I am a Christian in the Family, and Jesus is my best friend, lover and all that kinda stuff....if it wouldnt be for him dying for me all my life would be a real mess and total crap!!
My daughter is the most important person in my life!!!! I love my family and friends.
What I hate the most is betrayal and liers!!!! And I feel I'm making this too long so I will end this with this (Nat says it's depressing, I say it's poetic,lol)
"If you ever see me cry, just pass me by, I'll get over it soon. If you ever tell a lie just pass me by, I wont be forgiving you till next years June."